Sunday, April 13, 2008

If Only...

... Double Negatives becomes Positive in real life - Life would be so much better.

.. there is such a thing as a happy perfectionist.

.. Hope is quantifiable.

If only... is just like a wishlist. Even if this is the hypothetical situation of a genie granting me 3 wishes, I would not, in my last wish, wish that I had infinitely many more wishes that would be granted. It is a human tendency to take things for granted if there is no competing demand resulting in diminishing satisfaction; I do not want to lead a life taking people and or things around me for granted.

This is a night of random thoughts...

Humans also have an unconscious tendency to seek permanence, a sense of security that something will always exist, a safe zone. Someone did ask me before why I never got a tattoo. I suppose apart from the fact that I appreciate natural beauty more (and i can do away with that pain :P), I really can't find something, be it an object or image or word, that I feel so strongly about. I've spent many nights staring at the sky, allowing my thoughts to wonder while I seek the much needed peace and serenity within. Emotionally, I know that I am seeking something, something greater than life. I feel that "it" exists, but in what form and where, I seek to discover...

Recently I watched "The Art of Negative Thinking" during my 4-movie marathon last weekend as part of the Singapore Film Festival. Again, a provocative film that sought to debunk the almost too-good-to-be-true effects of Positive thinking in entirety. The parting thought it left me was one of an image (of myself) reading tonnes of self- (help) enrichment books and asking myself, "so what was that thing about striking a balance? ... "

4 comments:

LA's B.L.O.G. said...

Wow! The movie must be very powerful... your words seems pretty negative at the ending wor...

Maybe having a clear purpose would help? Maybe knowing what you want to be at age 45 will help? Maybe how you want to be remembered after you leave this world will help?

Optimism is a force multiplier that i cannot afford not to have.

Cheers always!
Leroy

ultrabeast said...

>> .. there is such a thing as a happy perfectionist.

...and that is an oxymoron.

I'd always think that there's a bigger possibility that they want you to see them as being happy and contented on the outside, while doing their best to insulate you from having to ever see the turmoil they (invariably) have to go through in their everyday life...

Ah, the simple rigours of being one, yes?

Good to see you blogging ! :D

SunnySan said...

Leroy: Haha, it must be the post-effect of seeing too many crippled people and wheelchairs in one day (on the movie screen of course).

It is quite true.. sometimes the more I analyse and think deeper about things, I just trail off with more negative thoughts/feelings. Perhaps it's a reflection of my mood these days.

Haha, I like the way you use 'force multiplier'. I should really try to be more like that - all the way, the glass-is-half-full man!

SunnySan said...

u bill:
The world is a stage, and everyone's playing the role they're born to play (ok this is contentious), everyone wears a mask.

Perhaps what you said earlier about honest people being the greatest liars is really true!