This entry will be very itemised and incoherent. There have been ideas floating around in my mind, but none seemed to invoke such deep emotions to actually get me seated in front of my com to blog. In short, I've just been plain lazy when it comes to my own 'personal admin' and chewing on those ideas at the back of my mind.
Firstly, my greatest accomplishment for 2009 is signing away my commitment to learning to play the violin. Yes, you've heard me, i've signed up for a year of lessons of violin, and it's gonna start after CNY. And well, I can't think of a better time to start, purely because there is probably never going to be a better time, ever. So what if i'm not a young kid taking up music lessons - don't you laugh at me. In one year's time, i'll play a kick-ass 'twinkle twinkle little star' tune, and i'm just gonna laugh out loud cos i know many can't actually do it. Eventually, i've a good mind to go into tai chi n wing chun (though yeah, i'd hate to begin it now as if i'm one of those who've caught onto the recent craze cos of Ip Man (Though it's a hands down awesome show)).
Anyway, my boss has been passing comments that I seem abnormally happy these days at work. Well, perhaps. Firstly, I think everyone's starting to get their act together, and we're finally starting to see the need to get aligned now. And more importantly, I think I know where I’m heading. Definitely there’re many ‘distractors’ and I’ve been getting the sensing that there’s a glass ceiling. Now the question is what kind of end-state can I get to? And, I know.. I don’t want to regret my choice. And I’m beginning to think I prob won’t regret my choice. I think I just need to have a feel of my own position in this organisation.
On another note, perhaps another reason why i'm 'happier' is due to the fact that I really appreciate being born to modern times. I've been following a China production 'Yan Zhi Xue' (7pm on Ch 55) that revolves around the lives of a family run by women in the old times, the times where women were still oppressed and didn't have a place in society. If it's true that people get reincarnated and everyone goes through a cycle of life and death, I wonder what kind of woman I would have been if I was born in those times. I suppose if I didn't love the guy I was arranged to get married to, I would have been a trouble-maker. I definitely would have prefered being single for my entire life.
Sometimes, I'm amused at myself. The sight of beautiful flowers, the smell of rain, the comfort of having a cup of coffee with a good book etc can pretty much make me forget about all my worries, and just be happy. Simple pleasures in life. I can be a dreamer, a crazy dreamer at times, but i know that deep down, my feet has always been grounded...
Now, moving on. You've definitely heard of the phrase 'structure drives behaviour' alot. My interpretation of this is that the ‘ghost’ of the legacy lingers in the organisation, surfacing in the form of legacy issues, mindsets etc, even if the winds have changed and new people have come and go. It's such a powerful thing - memory, that is. Does one cease to exist only if one is forgotten, not just if one no longer takes on a physical form. What are memories if they mean nothing to those left behind? Would anyone even bother to want to know the story of the one that used to exist? Perhaps, it’s time to break up the pieces and reconstruct again. I’d like to think of this as a more palatable option as opposed to the ‘shock doctrine’ theory of seizing the opportunity of a crisis to bring upon radical change… Honestly, what kind of change are we looking at? It can’t be all that radical, right?
Firstly, my greatest accomplishment for 2009 is signing away my commitment to learning to play the violin. Yes, you've heard me, i've signed up for a year of lessons of violin, and it's gonna start after CNY. And well, I can't think of a better time to start, purely because there is probably never going to be a better time, ever. So what if i'm not a young kid taking up music lessons - don't you laugh at me. In one year's time, i'll play a kick-ass 'twinkle twinkle little star' tune, and i'm just gonna laugh out loud cos i know many can't actually do it. Eventually, i've a good mind to go into tai chi n wing chun (though yeah, i'd hate to begin it now as if i'm one of those who've caught onto the recent craze cos of Ip Man (Though it's a hands down awesome show)).
Anyway, my boss has been passing comments that I seem abnormally happy these days at work. Well, perhaps. Firstly, I think everyone's starting to get their act together, and we're finally starting to see the need to get aligned now. And more importantly, I think I know where I’m heading. Definitely there’re many ‘distractors’ and I’ve been getting the sensing that there’s a glass ceiling. Now the question is what kind of end-state can I get to? And, I know.. I don’t want to regret my choice. And I’m beginning to think I prob won’t regret my choice. I think I just need to have a feel of my own position in this organisation.
On another note, perhaps another reason why i'm 'happier' is due to the fact that I really appreciate being born to modern times. I've been following a China production 'Yan Zhi Xue' (7pm on Ch 55) that revolves around the lives of a family run by women in the old times, the times where women were still oppressed and didn't have a place in society. If it's true that people get reincarnated and everyone goes through a cycle of life and death, I wonder what kind of woman I would have been if I was born in those times. I suppose if I didn't love the guy I was arranged to get married to, I would have been a trouble-maker. I definitely would have prefered being single for my entire life.
Sometimes, I'm amused at myself. The sight of beautiful flowers, the smell of rain, the comfort of having a cup of coffee with a good book etc can pretty much make me forget about all my worries, and just be happy. Simple pleasures in life. I can be a dreamer, a crazy dreamer at times, but i know that deep down, my feet has always been grounded...
Now, moving on. You've definitely heard of the phrase 'structure drives behaviour' alot. My interpretation of this is that the ‘ghost’ of the legacy lingers in the organisation, surfacing in the form of legacy issues, mindsets etc, even if the winds have changed and new people have come and go. It's such a powerful thing - memory, that is. Does one cease to exist only if one is forgotten, not just if one no longer takes on a physical form. What are memories if they mean nothing to those left behind? Would anyone even bother to want to know the story of the one that used to exist? Perhaps, it’s time to break up the pieces and reconstruct again. I’d like to think of this as a more palatable option as opposed to the ‘shock doctrine’ theory of seizing the opportunity of a crisis to bring upon radical change… Honestly, what kind of change are we looking at? It can’t be all that radical, right?
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Congrats on taking up the violin challenge! ~ hx
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