I am happy. Suddenly, I feel like I've got the world on a string, sitting on a rainbow, got the string around my finger, what a world, what a life.. =)
My favourite holiday season is coming!! YESHHH Christmas!! I miss a white christmas. Well, I've already taken my leave, but I'm still considering whether I should go on a solo trip to some faraway place just to experience a white christmas. Now, a white christmas would be nicee, but a solo one would be kinda sad. Haha we'll see.
I miss being on course, really. Perhaps I surprised myself a little, for this time, my focus was quite different this time round. I wanted to do away with all the silly expectations I imagined others had of me, and I just wanted to learn and have fun. Perhaps I could have put in more effort into studying, but I think I'd be missing the point altogether. And I'm really happy to have known really great people and to have made a couple of good friends.. I really didn't expect that given the short duration of the cse. I'm pleasantly surprised. =) (I used to be kinda skeptical that real friendships can be forged at the workplace that is flooded by overly-pragmatic people.. or maybe, i just didn't take the leap to get to know them better.) Nevertheless, my point is that I think I've found that balance I've been searching for all this while to put focus on the right areas, the right areas being those that I'm at peace and happy with.
On another note, there have been a couple of things I've been thinking about:
Am I really XX (my age ;P)? What comes along with getting older & being older, and what doesn't? Does age difference actually mean anything?
I've always been unconsciously searching for a book that had a great impact on me when I read it in uni days. I had bought it twice, only to have given both of them away to the people I cared about then. As I get into my contemplative mood again, I started to search online for that book, but failed terribly with a vague memory of the author's name - I only remember a 'max' in it, and the only other clue was that it was a christian book. Yes, a christian book - again I surprised myself. I suppose that was the time when I seriously considered taking to christianity. Over time, I realised what had drawn me to talking to some of the most-pious christian friends about spirituality & like (and of course leading myself into thinking it may be the right religion to follow ) was really about being able to have 'deep' conversations about life. Anyway, I digress. I came across that book today! It has been close to 5 yrs! Excitedly, I took up the book and flipped through it. But as I browsed through the book, it became increasingly foreign to me. I started to question what kind of impact I expected from having found the book, 5 years later. Was it to relive that moment of 'enlightenment' that had dawned upon me 5 years back? Then, the next question was whether it would have another great impact on me again. Of course, this may sound crazy, but this is unlike the typical experience one might have if one was to read about some ingenious n witty insights/ viewpoints in an essay. What this book offered me then was a close to spiritual experience, then. Hella, the practical devil part of me set in as I started to weigh the unknown outcome against the opportunity cost for parting with twenty bucks on an unknown outcome. Haha, of course my friend had a good laugh witnessing the entire episode. (Heya, A, though I think I 'trained' u to be the best runner in our coy back then, thanks for standing by me, and thanks again for the good conversations =) ) Anyway, so I finally decided to take a gamble again and buy it. Oh yes, I just found another good reason for buying books - I am a strong believer of the chinese phrase "wen1 gu4 zhi1 xing1". Hah!
The last is this passage i've come across many times:
~~~~~
Sherlock Holmes and Dr. Watson went on a camping trip. As they lay down for the night, Holmes said, "Watson look up at the sky and tell me what you see."
And Watson said, "I see million and missions of stars."
Holmes said, "And what does that tell you?"
And Watson replied, " Astronomically it tells me that there are millions of galaxies and potentially billions of planets. Theologically, it tells me that God is great and that we are small. Meteorologically, it tells me that we will have a beautiful day tomorrow. What does it tell you?"
Sherlock says, "Watson you fool. Somebody stole our tent!"
~~~~~
It never fails to set me pondering about many, many things each time, and of course with nothing less than a burst of laughter. =D
******
Seriously, reality is creeping back. Haha, not that I don't like it, it'll be interesting at the very least.
So today I was at the ops room waiting for my turn to go into the meeting. It suddenly struck me that I still did not know the duty forecast for this month (well, I haven't been clearing my already flooded mailbox while on cse).
Feeling lucky, I asked B: "Can you help me check when i'm scheduled for duty this month?"
B: "I can't remember, lemme check..." *hear the ruffling of paper* "... oh yes, your duty is tom."
* Silent pause*
B: "err... is it ok?"
Me: "Do I have the option of saying no?" * and I smiled*
I feel like a winner. This happens all the time. I must thank my lucky stars that it wasn't scheduled for the previous weekend.
My favourite holiday season is coming!! YESHHH Christmas!! I miss a white christmas. Well, I've already taken my leave, but I'm still considering whether I should go on a solo trip to some faraway place just to experience a white christmas. Now, a white christmas would be nicee, but a solo one would be kinda sad. Haha we'll see.
I miss being on course, really. Perhaps I surprised myself a little, for this time, my focus was quite different this time round. I wanted to do away with all the silly expectations I imagined others had of me, and I just wanted to learn and have fun. Perhaps I could have put in more effort into studying, but I think I'd be missing the point altogether. And I'm really happy to have known really great people and to have made a couple of good friends.. I really didn't expect that given the short duration of the cse. I'm pleasantly surprised. =) (I used to be kinda skeptical that real friendships can be forged at the workplace that is flooded by overly-pragmatic people.. or maybe, i just didn't take the leap to get to know them better.) Nevertheless, my point is that I think I've found that balance I've been searching for all this while to put focus on the right areas, the right areas being those that I'm at peace and happy with.
On another note, there have been a couple of things I've been thinking about:
Am I really XX (my age ;P)? What comes along with getting older & being older, and what doesn't? Does age difference actually mean anything?
I've always been unconsciously searching for a book that had a great impact on me when I read it in uni days. I had bought it twice, only to have given both of them away to the people I cared about then. As I get into my contemplative mood again, I started to search online for that book, but failed terribly with a vague memory of the author's name - I only remember a 'max' in it, and the only other clue was that it was a christian book. Yes, a christian book - again I surprised myself. I suppose that was the time when I seriously considered taking to christianity. Over time, I realised what had drawn me to talking to some of the most-pious christian friends about spirituality & like (and of course leading myself into thinking it may be the right religion to follow ) was really about being able to have 'deep' conversations about life. Anyway, I digress. I came across that book today! It has been close to 5 yrs! Excitedly, I took up the book and flipped through it. But as I browsed through the book, it became increasingly foreign to me. I started to question what kind of impact I expected from having found the book, 5 years later. Was it to relive that moment of 'enlightenment' that had dawned upon me 5 years back? Then, the next question was whether it would have another great impact on me again. Of course, this may sound crazy, but this is unlike the typical experience one might have if one was to read about some ingenious n witty insights/ viewpoints in an essay. What this book offered me then was a close to spiritual experience, then. Hella, the practical devil part of me set in as I started to weigh the unknown outcome against the opportunity cost for parting with twenty bucks on an unknown outcome. Haha, of course my friend had a good laugh witnessing the entire episode. (Heya, A, though I think I 'trained' u to be the best runner in our coy back then, thanks for standing by me, and thanks again for the good conversations =) ) Anyway, so I finally decided to take a gamble again and buy it. Oh yes, I just found another good reason for buying books - I am a strong believer of the chinese phrase "wen1 gu4 zhi1 xing1". Hah!
The last is this passage i've come across many times:
~~~~~
Sherlock Holmes and Dr. Watson went on a camping trip. As they lay down for the night, Holmes said, "Watson look up at the sky and tell me what you see."
And Watson said, "I see million and missions of stars."
Holmes said, "And what does that tell you?"
And Watson replied, " Astronomically it tells me that there are millions of galaxies and potentially billions of planets. Theologically, it tells me that God is great and that we are small. Meteorologically, it tells me that we will have a beautiful day tomorrow. What does it tell you?"
Sherlock says, "Watson you fool. Somebody stole our tent!"
~~~~~
It never fails to set me pondering about many, many things each time, and of course with nothing less than a burst of laughter. =D
******
Seriously, reality is creeping back. Haha, not that I don't like it, it'll be interesting at the very least.
So today I was at the ops room waiting for my turn to go into the meeting. It suddenly struck me that I still did not know the duty forecast for this month (well, I haven't been clearing my already flooded mailbox while on cse).
Feeling lucky, I asked B: "Can you help me check when i'm scheduled for duty this month?"
B: "I can't remember, lemme check..." *hear the ruffling of paper* "... oh yes, your duty is tom."
* Silent pause*
B: "err... is it ok?"
Me: "Do I have the option of saying no?" * and I smiled*
I feel like a winner. This happens all the time. I must thank my lucky stars that it wasn't scheduled for the previous weekend.
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