Reflections on Work.. oh, did i just use the word 'work'?
- My philosophy: First & foremost, I will not let the Organisation down. 2. The moment I stop learning and contributing is the time I know I ought to move on.
I was browsing at Borders earlier and I came across this book "the 5 questions you should ask abt your organisation" I didn't really have the patience to read through it, the gist of it (i think) is to see what the mission, vision, values ... of your organisation is. Well, the moment i saw that, i just closed the book and put it down. I didn't need another book to tell me what this is abt, now that i see it on a near daily basis. The odd thing was that while I was walking home later on, it crept back into my mind again. I was just thinking to myself, I know the mission of my organisation, the values.. well, vision? Hmm I'm not too sure on that.. (is it cos it changes yearly or with the change in the higher management?) Sigh. Anyway, I am definitely aligned to the mission and values! In fact, I feel so strongly for the mission, the very existence of it that this idealistic part of me wishes I'll always remain relevant when age catches on. But, what's a little disturbing is that thought that since I am aligned to it, I think I should be happier.
In terms of milestones for the past year, I can summarise it into two phases: the near first half of it was spent more on my personal development. I have never been so driven to dwell at the 'self-improvement' section (and not embarrassed at the very least!). I was kinda shaken up as I became more aware of my flaws, and in the process I think my self-confidence took a dip - and it shows when I am more quiet than usual. And yup, I went through my 'quarter-life' crisis. Now, i'm glad to say i've pulled through that. Moving on, all my milestones pertaining to work came in at the second half. Again, I became more aware of how I am as a subordinate, a fellow colleague, and my working style and weaknesses. I am very thankful actually, that I finally found a reason for my very existence in this organisation. I've learnt alot and grown as a person.. humbly.. Anyway, I've always been on the search for a role-model. So far, I haven't found someone who encompasses all the traits i'm looking out for, but in various areas, some names come to mind. Now, even without a role-model, I have found someone for whom I dare say I'll be motivated and driven to work my arse off, and to go into battle with. For that, I'm very thankful.
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I am a little disturbed. Yes I am, with my learning ability/ capacity. I had just attended a coaching course not too long ago, and I was quite switched off, largely cos of the instructor. An ex-military guy who kept going in circles but not getting his point across; very loud in his delivery (so loud that I had no problems hearing, but I stopped listening shortly after.) I compared this to courses I attended at NIE. That.. well, the instructor had very clear KPIs to meet and even though it could get boring, again I was quite put off by the way they tried to establish a rapport with our group of adult learners, making comments like 'yeah, i know many of you are here not because you want to.. ' or ' i know you're here to take a break from work'.. What the hell? Why is the organisation forking so much money for this?? I felt a great pain. Do these people know that this organisation offers the individual PLENTY of opportunities to go for courses so they can develop themselves professionally? Ok, I digress... well, back to that coaching cse.. I felt horrible after that for having such a terrible attitude. And I realised that I allowed my learning attitude and ability to be affected by the quality (rather, the lack of) of the instructor. The good part is that if i get a good instructor, I can literally get 'high' on learning. But if the reverse is true.. sigh, that's what I should guard myself against. Well, now I'm on another course, I just went through another reflection, and this time, I'll pro-actively take charge of my own learning. Well, we'll know on monday if that's going to have the butterfly effect on the rest of the class.. we'll see. Anyway, I believe learning should be fun, and I am a purist in this aspect. Learn for the joy of learning! Learning shouldn't be calculative.
Ok, shucks, I better stop. Time to get started on my essay... well, the truth is I had many ideas that I jotted down on my little black book, and i've been reading up with the hope that i'll be able to come up with something original. Now, another idiosyncracy of mine is that I hate to plagarise ideas. I prefer not to read essays on the same topic for fear of it influencing my thoughts and putting a framework to my work. Yet, I find it quite an insult if i actually have to copy ideas from the past. Sigh, in short, I am not an efficient writer and it proves to be quite painful... most of the time. =S
- My philosophy: First & foremost, I will not let the Organisation down. 2. The moment I stop learning and contributing is the time I know I ought to move on.
I was browsing at Borders earlier and I came across this book "the 5 questions you should ask abt your organisation" I didn't really have the patience to read through it, the gist of it (i think) is to see what the mission, vision, values ... of your organisation is. Well, the moment i saw that, i just closed the book and put it down. I didn't need another book to tell me what this is abt, now that i see it on a near daily basis. The odd thing was that while I was walking home later on, it crept back into my mind again. I was just thinking to myself, I know the mission of my organisation, the values.. well, vision? Hmm I'm not too sure on that.. (is it cos it changes yearly or with the change in the higher management?) Sigh. Anyway, I am definitely aligned to the mission and values! In fact, I feel so strongly for the mission, the very existence of it that this idealistic part of me wishes I'll always remain relevant when age catches on. But, what's a little disturbing is that thought that since I am aligned to it, I think I should be happier.
In terms of milestones for the past year, I can summarise it into two phases: the near first half of it was spent more on my personal development. I have never been so driven to dwell at the 'self-improvement' section (and not embarrassed at the very least!). I was kinda shaken up as I became more aware of my flaws, and in the process I think my self-confidence took a dip - and it shows when I am more quiet than usual. And yup, I went through my 'quarter-life' crisis. Now, i'm glad to say i've pulled through that. Moving on, all my milestones pertaining to work came in at the second half. Again, I became more aware of how I am as a subordinate, a fellow colleague, and my working style and weaknesses. I am very thankful actually, that I finally found a reason for my very existence in this organisation. I've learnt alot and grown as a person.. humbly.. Anyway, I've always been on the search for a role-model. So far, I haven't found someone who encompasses all the traits i'm looking out for, but in various areas, some names come to mind. Now, even without a role-model, I have found someone for whom I dare say I'll be motivated and driven to work my arse off, and to go into battle with. For that, I'm very thankful.
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I am a little disturbed. Yes I am, with my learning ability/ capacity. I had just attended a coaching course not too long ago, and I was quite switched off, largely cos of the instructor. An ex-military guy who kept going in circles but not getting his point across; very loud in his delivery (so loud that I had no problems hearing, but I stopped listening shortly after.) I compared this to courses I attended at NIE. That.. well, the instructor had very clear KPIs to meet and even though it could get boring, again I was quite put off by the way they tried to establish a rapport with our group of adult learners, making comments like 'yeah, i know many of you are here not because you want to.. ' or ' i know you're here to take a break from work'.. What the hell? Why is the organisation forking so much money for this?? I felt a great pain. Do these people know that this organisation offers the individual PLENTY of opportunities to go for courses so they can develop themselves professionally? Ok, I digress... well, back to that coaching cse.. I felt horrible after that for having such a terrible attitude. And I realised that I allowed my learning attitude and ability to be affected by the quality (rather, the lack of) of the instructor. The good part is that if i get a good instructor, I can literally get 'high' on learning. But if the reverse is true.. sigh, that's what I should guard myself against. Well, now I'm on another course, I just went through another reflection, and this time, I'll pro-actively take charge of my own learning. Well, we'll know on monday if that's going to have the butterfly effect on the rest of the class.. we'll see. Anyway, I believe learning should be fun, and I am a purist in this aspect. Learn for the joy of learning! Learning shouldn't be calculative.
Ok, shucks, I better stop. Time to get started on my essay... well, the truth is I had many ideas that I jotted down on my little black book, and i've been reading up with the hope that i'll be able to come up with something original. Now, another idiosyncracy of mine is that I hate to plagarise ideas. I prefer not to read essays on the same topic for fear of it influencing my thoughts and putting a framework to my work. Yet, I find it quite an insult if i actually have to copy ideas from the past. Sigh, in short, I am not an efficient writer and it proves to be quite painful... most of the time. =S
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