... A contraption that pens my thoughts when I want it to. Ideas are like gems, and they come and go easily like the wind.. Well, it's not that I have fantastic ideas, but hey, it's still cool to have a e-journal! =P
If this contraception existed, this would be what it would have recorded during my drive from home to vivo:
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I had a little gathering with some of my cousins, and what was etched pretty deep in my mind was the conversation about jobs - negotiating for OT pay, job satisfaction, the senior getting too settled in their old ways, interviewers looking out for good attitude.. The thought about negotiating for more pay was something that never came up to my mind ever before. ?!?! Why is it so? Is it because I knew since day 1 that that's the rule when i signed on the dotted lines? Yes, definitely, but not entirely. It takes somewhat an idealistic person of sorts to go for jobs/things that they're passionate about over a well-paying job that he/she could have possibly taken up.
Myths about this organisation:
1. People in it are living in a world of their own.
Of course! It is, perhaps, one of the most compassionate and forgiving organisations. Everyone's always given a second chance - of course the pain is that some suffer as a result of mistakes, and it probably does some damage to the person's reputation/performance, but at least he/she doesn't get struck off the list right away. This, to me, is perhaps something I have a hate-love relationship with. Unlike many big and famous corporations out there that have probably have close to zero tolerance for mistakes (which probably draws more mercenary personalities) that still attract highly-competent individuals with the fame & fat pay-cheque, we do not have such a luxury. We do have quite a far bit to go to raising the bar for "job-appeal"solely based on the nature of some parts of the job, and quite sadly that appeal probably applies only to the group of individuals with such likes for the job. (you can see, I choose not to talk abt those who are driven by monetary reasons - hopefully not everyone i know falls under this category! )
2. My boss just plays the big boss.
Can we really afford to all work as individuals? This is the situation which I'd say the boss doesn't recognise that he's part of the team (& he better recognise that he's the team-leader!). You see, regardless of what level you are at in this organisation, whether a great proposal makes it or breaks it depends greatly on how hard the boss is willing to push for it. And just as with any team dynamics, the moment someone in the team is always 'allowed' to slack & have his part of the work spill over to the other teammates, good team relations break down. That is how the 'good' people get overworked and worn out. There is only so much that job satisfaction/ recognition through ranking can mean to the individual & do justice to what the individual has churned. In the 'core theory of success' framework, the 'quality of relationship', 'quality of thinking', 'quality of action' and 'quality of results' are ingredients that altogether form a reinforcing loop. The most important is the quality of results at the end of the day, and yes, our ranking is based solely on drafting a laundry list of 'what I have done this quarter'. However, the real experience, and probably the most memorable moments are those when the quality of relationship is good. How now can we all strive to leverage on our strengths, improve on our weaknesses and strike this ever-so-delicate balance?... Can I be satisfied knowing that I'm constantly trying my best to keep improving, and hope that I'm focusing my energy on the right things at the right time? It wouldn't be enough would it..
This organisation would strive if there are more people who place the interest of the organisation before self. Only when people are selfless in giving first, would the organisation get closer to the 'ideal organisation', and then would people themselves benefit from it more. Again, it's like a reinforcing cycle.. All it takes is the initial step... Hey, it would be really scary to have people who place their self-interest over the organisation to be at the upper echelons...
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Ok, I gotta stop thinking about my work, my job! Why do I want to go to vivo? I miss the time during uni where I would spend a good part of my weekend taking a drive down to gardens/parks in the nearby towns, or to just take a slow walk round and out of campus. The serenity the wilderness afforded me was unbelievably awesome, to be accompanied by a 'zhi zi' would be priceless. Let my mind wander off to the dreamy state, the music playing softly in the background.. the wind... Do I know you? The one I can live with and can't live without? Perhaps, I should start scheduling nature walks during the weekends, a picnic of sorts. Also.. Perhaps, the reason for my restlessness at work is that I'm deprived of the sunshine I love so much. I will SO die in a Scandinavian country.
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Just vaguely, I remember myself struggling to understand the difference between disposition and position - I must be tired.
Sigh, I dislike the DJ of 90.5 for having a fantastic line-up of songs at this time of the night. Into slumber I do not want yet have to...
If this contraception existed, this would be what it would have recorded during my drive from home to vivo:
******
I had a little gathering with some of my cousins, and what was etched pretty deep in my mind was the conversation about jobs - negotiating for OT pay, job satisfaction, the senior getting too settled in their old ways, interviewers looking out for good attitude.. The thought about negotiating for more pay was something that never came up to my mind ever before. ?!?! Why is it so? Is it because I knew since day 1 that that's the rule when i signed on the dotted lines? Yes, definitely, but not entirely. It takes somewhat an idealistic person of sorts to go for jobs/things that they're passionate about over a well-paying job that he/she could have possibly taken up.
Myths about this organisation:
1. People in it are living in a world of their own.
Of course! It is, perhaps, one of the most compassionate and forgiving organisations. Everyone's always given a second chance - of course the pain is that some suffer as a result of mistakes, and it probably does some damage to the person's reputation/performance, but at least he/she doesn't get struck off the list right away. This, to me, is perhaps something I have a hate-love relationship with. Unlike many big and famous corporations out there that have probably have close to zero tolerance for mistakes (which probably draws more mercenary personalities) that still attract highly-competent individuals with the fame & fat pay-cheque, we do not have such a luxury. We do have quite a far bit to go to raising the bar for "job-appeal"solely based on the nature of some parts of the job, and quite sadly that appeal probably applies only to the group of individuals with such likes for the job. (you can see, I choose not to talk abt those who are driven by monetary reasons - hopefully not everyone i know falls under this category! )
2. My boss just plays the big boss.
Can we really afford to all work as individuals? This is the situation which I'd say the boss doesn't recognise that he's part of the team (& he better recognise that he's the team-leader!). You see, regardless of what level you are at in this organisation, whether a great proposal makes it or breaks it depends greatly on how hard the boss is willing to push for it. And just as with any team dynamics, the moment someone in the team is always 'allowed' to slack & have his part of the work spill over to the other teammates, good team relations break down. That is how the 'good' people get overworked and worn out. There is only so much that job satisfaction/ recognition through ranking can mean to the individual & do justice to what the individual has churned. In the 'core theory of success' framework, the 'quality of relationship', 'quality of thinking', 'quality of action' and 'quality of results' are ingredients that altogether form a reinforcing loop. The most important is the quality of results at the end of the day, and yes, our ranking is based solely on drafting a laundry list of 'what I have done this quarter'. However, the real experience, and probably the most memorable moments are those when the quality of relationship is good. How now can we all strive to leverage on our strengths, improve on our weaknesses and strike this ever-so-delicate balance?... Can I be satisfied knowing that I'm constantly trying my best to keep improving, and hope that I'm focusing my energy on the right things at the right time? It wouldn't be enough would it..
This organisation would strive if there are more people who place the interest of the organisation before self. Only when people are selfless in giving first, would the organisation get closer to the 'ideal organisation', and then would people themselves benefit from it more. Again, it's like a reinforcing cycle.. All it takes is the initial step... Hey, it would be really scary to have people who place their self-interest over the organisation to be at the upper echelons...
++++++
Ok, I gotta stop thinking about my work, my job! Why do I want to go to vivo? I miss the time during uni where I would spend a good part of my weekend taking a drive down to gardens/parks in the nearby towns, or to just take a slow walk round and out of campus. The serenity the wilderness afforded me was unbelievably awesome, to be accompanied by a 'zhi zi' would be priceless. Let my mind wander off to the dreamy state, the music playing softly in the background.. the wind... Do I know you? The one I can live with and can't live without? Perhaps, I should start scheduling nature walks during the weekends, a picnic of sorts. Also.. Perhaps, the reason for my restlessness at work is that I'm deprived of the sunshine I love so much. I will SO die in a Scandinavian country.
******
Just vaguely, I remember myself struggling to understand the difference between disposition and position - I must be tired.
Sigh, I dislike the DJ of 90.5 for having a fantastic line-up of songs at this time of the night. Into slumber I do not want yet have to...
